Thursday 8th October 2020 Creation gave me flames, that lit the pit of despair, and wrapped the silence, in the golden coat of a lion. Happiness was always eternal. Friday 9th October 2020 Abundant joy, flows in me like a firework, that seeps into the past. A shining light, that brightens memories, turns them into stars. Saturday 10th October 2020 A kaleidoscope of warmth encircles me in its fourfold embrace. I exhale a momentous final breath that rises up and joins the clouds. Sunday 11th October 2020 Birth and Death, two great titans locked in dance. Who am I to get involved in what they do. I pass from one titan to the next. Monday 12th October 2020 I understand, that everything which passed me, across the landscape of my life, was simply a part of me. I gave definitions to mirror images. Tuesday 13th October 2020 Controlled by the lowest point, I sunk into a fugue, and refused to find an exit. But, it was worth it, to find the light of being, alive. Wednesday 14th October 2020 I hope the next time I go around, my eyes see the beauty I was blinded by. Only now can I feel it. Only now. Thursday 15th October 2020 the surface has eroded and I stand alone in my dignity there was a time when my fears were a black dog pulling me forward I am free Friday 16th October 2020 Wishes, like shooting stars, float by the form I used to inhabit. I chose to watch them and take no action. As I disperse, I regret. Saturday 17th October 2020 I shed more than I should have, but in the final fade-out, should I have let go of everything? Was there any more to let go of, or was it illusory? Sunday 18th October 2020 Chaos sinks into swelling of black night. I’ve done all I had to do and when the night comes for me, My chaos will be ordered. Monday 19th October 2020 Sometimes I saw a unity, above and below. I felt its pain in the feet that carried me forward. And the head that looked back. Tuesday 20th October 2020 I sink into the air like a dust that glows a cosmic melody my sound alive with faint memories of far off distance slow and subtle Wednesday 21st October 2020 When I’m truly gone, my shadow will linger. It will visit all the places, I was too afraid to go. If you see it, pay it no attention. Thursday 22nd October 2020 Like a floating bubble, in a sea of sinking memories, wings take me to the surface. I ascend with no chains. Friday 23rd October 2020 My gift was to cherish the colours only I could see There were times when I was colour blind But I persevered Now the colours multiply Saturday 24th October 2020 this was never the truth only a minuscule moment of truth I expanded Sunday 25th October 2020 I’ve never sung before never shared my singing voice but as it’s my time it pours out of me Monday 26th October 2020 The invisible line I follow, runs out of ink soon as it fades, I can see, artefacts of misplaced love, and unseen foundation. Tuesday 27th October 2020 Shackles of the another world, relinquish their hold. Agony of imagination, a cosmic farce. I stretch out my body into eternity. Wednesday 28th October 2020 mistakes I cut into soft flesh, people who never deserved it. in the final moments, it was team work that led to the stillness I sought. Thursday 29th October 2020 What is this body I was so fond of Why do I cling to a rock weighed down by memories Change is giving to me what gravity never could Friday 30th October 2020 I was a piece on a board, for someone else’s game. No matter what I did, it was all that could’ve happened. There was no winning or loosing, as now I can see every move. Saturday 31st October 2020 Is it ok to regret a life you’ve never had? In this state of transformation, I am pleased That I never got what I desired, As it was all I could do. Sunday 1st November 2020 the last walk on solid ground it takes me a long time to stop now that I can see the exact moment I want this walk to never end Monday 2nd November 2020 A universe never dies. It morphs into something else, just like me. The tears I’m holding back, tell me a truth, I’m too afraid to understand. Tuesday 3rd November 2020 You can change the world. Rid yourself of the ghosts holding you in place. But maybe, they only let go because they felt a diminishing transience. Off to some other poor fool, to teach them how to live. Wednesday 4th November 2020 my silence breaks out of this body and when it reaches the furthest part of space it will become a sun that gives light as my body returns to the shadows Thursday 5th November 2020 A laughing star crosses my path off the planet. To not give all that I had was a choice. Right and wrong no longer exist. Friday 6th November I never found a way to get off this vehicle. As it heads to a possible ending, I begin to value the decisions I never made. Saturday 7th November Comets of flame strike a sky where colour fades to black I can see past my memories into an abyss of light Sunday 8th November 2020 Only now can I understand the location of pain in a universe I project what I will become outside of fragmentary instances.